I was 7 playing hide and go seek with my brother and cousins. I was hiding with my oldest cousin (15) when he forced his genitals into my mouth. I started crying an pushing him away, he only stopped when I threatened to tell my parents.
I felt betrayed because he was someone who was supposed to protect me from bad things. I also felt guilty for lying to my brother about why I was crying, I didn't want to tell him and ruin his relationship with our cousin. I realize now it was dumb of me rk feel that way. I would tell someone going through this to tell someone because holding it in will just hurt you more. You are not alone and it's not your fault.